Dear Reader,
For the past 11 months I have been occupied trying to find a career where I can excel. I admit I have had some opportunities--but none have been amazing or the ultimate. This has been creating a hole within my heart and its so large that I simply cannot go on any longer without having a purpose. My friend has been suggesting Grad School and I always shunted it away. Yesterday, the conversation came up again and I decided to release being stubborn and see if this option was a possibility. In fact.. it is! I just don't know if making this move would fulfill me. I don't know if I will be happy again if I get into graduate school. I am not even sure if this is the career path I want to pursue. However, just about anything beats another year of aimless thoughts and lack of direction. Every page I would turn is better than another minute of watching Maury on TV.
Having all these options is great... but deciding on one and then convincing a committee I am worthy is so difficult. Everything in life is a competition from school to the workplace. I wish people would see my talents. There is nothing more frustrating then hearing "oh you are wonderful, one day you will accomplish great things BUT you lack experience...". I am even beyond sick of hearing "something will come from this, things happen for a reason, keep your head up".
I need a shooting star....
Always,
Cath'
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Don't be afraid of a little competition C-Note. Keep yer chin up.
ReplyDeleteI just noticed your post! Thank you so much for reading my rant. I am still trying to figure out how to work this thing. How do I become a follower of you?
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